Sunday, July 13, 2008

Contentment

I have been feeling really content lately. Because things have been going so great, I've been noticing and thinking about how my life has turned out thus far. We've had a good weekend. The girls haven't been bickering, the weather has been cooler, we've been doing family activities. Nate's job is going good, I am feeling happy and healthy. I'm just in a good place, ya know?
Today I gave the lesson to the Beehives on Obedience. Perhaps this is what got me thinking. I get really nervous when I teach, but I tried to get through to the girls how important the concept is. It can be a hard thing, sometimes we are asked to do or not do things and we just don't have the bigger picture to understand why. I do believe that obedience will bring us blessings and peace. Does it guarantee happily ever after? No. We are all here for growth and trials. I've had growth and trials. Luckily not as many as others. That is how I know I am feeling content. Tomorrow it could fall apart for a while, but for today I had peace.
For the most part, I've been a pretty obedient person. I'm not saying that I've never questioned things and worked them out in my mind. I never went through a wild streak or was very rebellious. I've always felt that the teachings of my parents and the gospel were for my own good. I can look back now and see that the decisions that I've made throughout my life have brought me to this very happy place. I had and have good friends, I have a wonderful eternal companion and couldn't imagine being with anyone else. I've done my best as a mother and my kids like me. For the most part. Unless I'm being the worst mom in the world:) I was a bratty kid, but I think my teenage years could have been worse. We all survived.
I guess I am wondering what it is that make some people content and others always looking for the greener grass. Does greener grass really exist? Perhaps it does, but it isn't what we think it is.
Another thing that has helped with feeling content is this. And it hasn't been easy. For the most part, I have really tried to give up feeling guilty all the time. Who needs it? I decided that I don't and it has helped immensely. I would strongly suggest it to everyone. Now if I could just stop worrying all the time...
I'm rambling, I'm having a hard time putting my jumbled thoughts down.
Does contentment come from obedience? Or is it a state of mind?

12 comments:

Crazymamaof6 said...

seriously awesome thoughts. that is rad you are in a good place right now. and having contentment with where you are is AWESOME!

sometimes i struggle with being happy where i am right now. i always think, oh I'll be happier when i have a baby, or when my kids are older, or when we have more money. always wanting more. thinking I'll find it suddenly then. whenever ____happens, or i have _______. i need to get over it. now i look back and know that i should have enjoyed my babies more, or not having kids for the year we tried and i cried every month. i need to just be happy where i am right now in the moment. i still do it. after school starts, it will be better. after christmas, and i keep wishing away my years.

obedience is huge. maybe the people that don't struggle with obedience, don't struggle as much with the "only if's". they are content with not pushing the limits or looking elsewhere.
i struggle, and still have to learn somethings the hard way. that is what life is about. and then there are things that i have no doubts about, that just are easy for me. that might not be easy for others. everyone has their own issues. great post. it really has me thinking, and rambling on! way to go on that ! whoohoo for Tuesday!

Kristy said...

I'm so happy you are happy and content. I know being away from family is tough but you guys have made a great life for yourselves in AZ.

Piper said...

Perfectly put, Jen. I believe guilt is a wasted emotion. And the grass is greener because someone is taking care of it! If we take care of our own, it'll be just as appealing!
love you!

Karen and Guy Standing said...

I think that peace and contentment are the best. Just when I think that i want more I realize that this is enough. I am so glad that life is good.

grannybringhurst said...

Love that you are so content. You are a great daughter, mom, wife, friend and good example to others.

Em said...

I think that ovedience definitely adds to that peace in your life, but contentlment is more than that. I'm glad that you have been blessed with this great gift!

Vidal's Nest said...

I find contentment comes in moments for me right now and that is ok. We had so many BIG changes this past year and it really sent me for a loop. (Job promotion, new baby, moving, new friends etc.)
I struggle with depression so I think the GUILT thing is probably a huge piece of the puzzle.
I feel so overwhelmed and that's where the guilt thing comes in. I think as far as obedience goes...This is the best we've been for a long time. We were inactive for years. Trying to be obedient and do what is right now.I often wonder why it is a strugle to do what is right. Could be better but am on the right track. I don't think for me it has much to do with obedience. More like hormones. I have a huge feeling that with the right medication and a little kindness toward myself and things would be alot easier(or more bearable)
My girlfriend always tells me to stop shudding on myself (shoulda done this, shoulda done that)
Peace and contentment. It's what we are all stiving for.
Sounds like you are there~I am happy for you!

sheri rog said...

loved this because i, too gave this lesson in the laurels. it went like this...we're far more likely to be content when we know we are obedient, but there will always be struggles. and there will always be times we will question our obedience with what we aren't being blessed with. that's why faith plays such a big part of obedience. (knowing that blessings will come in God's time...maybe even after we feel we have been obedient long enough)

wasn't it a great lesson? i'm sure you did so great! i hope the laurels got a little something out of my lesson. (i don't know 'cause they're soooo quiet..."aaahhhh...say something, already!!!)

I was raised in a barn said...

very well said. I think you read my mind. how fun for you to be in YM I bet they just love you!

sara said...

content...what a nice place to be...obedience does bring contentment/peace...so glad life is good, at the moment...you are an amazing person whom i definitely admire!

Kim Bringhurst said...

For me peace has come from deciding to be happy with what I have NOW. I think I will always have to work on things and work through things, but I try to look at the progress I've already made and that has become enough to make me feel like it's all good. So, I guess, since I made that decision... it's a state of mind?

Britta said...

You did give an awesome lesson. The girls enjoyed it. I hate giving lessons too. It is getting easier though. Wait until you have to give that chasity lesson. I agree with you about being content and feeling peace.